just finished watching narnia! plus pastor lian preached a wonderful message of no condemnation.
there is therefore now no condemnation in Christ Jesus, the king of kings and lord of lords! the Lion of Judah who died for us and rose again! my help and redeemer, i will never be ashamed of You!
Christmas is coming!! happies!!!
and this will be my last week being sixteen! :)
and my parents surprised me yesterday with the dearest sheepy! today he was hugged alot by the cg haha :D

i did feel a little disappointed and angry...and exasperated at yet another broken promise.
i think now the question shouldn't be why.

if you're reading this by chance, i just wanna tell you i am eager to share the gospel with you not because i am obliged to. it is because my life has been so supernaturally blessed that i wanna share the best gift i can ever give to you, my friend: the gospel of grace.
it doesn't reflect badly on me or anything when you don't come. nor will you be condemned. but you miss out on all the beautiful things that are being shared, the Word that is being sent forth that has the power to change your life powerfully. these are not words i say to "buy" you over. these are sincere words.
i want so badly to show you Jesus, who is the power for all of us to fulfill our destinies as king-priests in this world and reign in life. i'm sorry if i've come across as being overbearing or even irritating, spamming you with calls and smses. please won't you open your heart to believe that Jesus is bigger than your circumstances? and just accept this invitation to see who He really is?

I only do this because i love you. and i can give you nothing better than this.

had a nightmare this morning. dreamt that the pw op i had was "just a practice" and 13 november was actually tomorrow. and i had thrown away my ppt, my script, everything...!
it did scare me :P

Never write a word that you'd be ashamed to read.
and today i finally plucked up the courage to delete those stories that i know are not good enough for me, for my own standards.
i want every work i write, that i put my name to, to be something i can be proud of.
so even though every little piece contained a bit of my soul i cannot let them remain. i guess as i grow up and mature in my thinking, my stories will mature. and as you can outgrow your mindsets you can outgrow your dreams, for a new set of ideals.
gone are the days when the appraisal of my work is dependent on the number of reviews i get and who the reviewers are. now i want to be my own strictest critic.

now I finally can unashamedly link my fanfiction profile to my lj. in a way it almost seems like i'm drawing these two worlds of mine together. my dream world and my real life one.

i can be icey-cold towards people or just plain awkward. both ways i don't like it.
darn this pride.
holiday hw here i come.

I LOVE TOASTIE :)

enjoyed myself very much this afternoon, revelling in books that i love. those old-fashioned but sweet, girlish books, i love them so. if they may be personified perhaps i would venture to describe them as genteel? so unlike some of the loud, modern chick flicks that sometimes seem shallow and meaningless to me when i reread them in a different setting. especially if they contain coarse language!
but these are books i can read again and again :)
also, i'm happy because i bought some pretty suede cords today :D i don't know why, but i just love felt, suede and velvet :)

found all I've been looking for.

loving people?
it certainly came as a surprise to me because i've never been a people person. but i'm willing to try. besides, the capacity to love people will not be from me, but from the Lord. so i won't look at my own selfishness :)

i didn't dare to say it, but i know, deep inside, that cg has helped me grow so much, both in my walk with the Lord and as a person. i used to be so closed-up in sec school, but having this cg family has helped me to open up to people. to be less scared. true, i still am rather fearful at times, but this is changing. plus when i was tagging along to sis' cg, the feeling was different. i dunno exactly how to say, but last year, i still had many many wrong ideas about God. but this year, hearing others share about how God has been faithful in their lives helped me to understand and see that He isn't a distant God at all, and encouraged me to see Him in my own circumstances as well. plus indeed, it makes a lot of difference to have someone to care and ask how're things going. it means so much to just have someone to turn to, who doesn't give you gloom-and-doom predictions or say "life will be like that, we just have to bear with it", but someone who gives you good godly counsel.

i know i have been blessed with much.
and i wanna share this.

is blissfully, contentedly happy making plans for christmas gifts :)
never felt so happy to get people gifts before! i'm like so not a gift person but omg, pretty things keep catching my eye.
i'm excited for the core member thingy too :)
what a wonderful holiday to look forward to! no peedoubleyou = heaven :D

i cleared my desktop of all pw-related things.
and it looks so beautifully empty now.
yays!

In Christ alone, will I glory
Though I could pride myself in battles won
For I've been blessed beyond measure
And by His strength alone I overcome
Oh I could stop and count successes like diamonds in my hands
But those trophies could not equal to the grace by which I stand

In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone

In Christ alone will I glory
For only by His grace I am redeemed
And only His tender mercy
Could reach beyond my weakness to my need
And now I seek no greater honor than just to know Him more
And to count my days with losses to the glory of my Lord

In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope

I think, I've learnt to let go.

had an interesting dinner with my uncle ytd.
according to him, cows are the biggest culprit when it comes to carbon dioxide emissions.
plus they fart an average of 3 times per minute.
worse still, they produce toxic gases when they hiccup.

dang.
i'm hiccuping now.
hic.
thank goodness i'm not a cow.

i often wonder why i scroll thru all my smses.
true, it helps me to rmb what events occurred when.
but i guess it's a way for me to rmb, i have never been alone. thanks for friends who have always been just an sms away.

I lay my life down at Your feet
Cause You're the only one I need
I turn to You and You are always there

In troubled times it's You I seek
I put You first that's all I need
I humble all I am all to You

One way
Jesus
You're the only one that I could live for
One Way
Jesus
You're the only one that I could live for

You are always, always there
Every how and everywhere
Your grace abounds so deeply within me

You will never ever change
Yesterday today the same
Forever till forever meets no end

You are the Way the Truth and the Life
We live by faith and not by sight for You
We're living all for You

awesome service!! <3
Ecce homo...my Jesus! :)

3 hours of summer was okay.
expected it to be more fun though.
but never mind, the green club makes up for it in gayness.

you know, if it wasn't for the apec meetings i'd still be walking along citilink, but i'd be going for arrow instead?
but there's service at expo tmr! :)

I want to keep a bunny <3
anyway.
i guess i've been ridiculously selfish this week. pw doesn't mean i can scream at people like that.
i'm sorry.
:(

had a nice chat with reggie on the bus :)
last day of school!!
going to have a good sleep at last.

i love my Jesus!
He is so gentle and loving to those who are timid :)

Psalm 35:27 (New King James Version)

Let them shout for joy and be glad,
Who favor my righteous cause;
And let them say continually,
“Let the LORD be magnified,
Who has pleasure in the prosperity of His servant.”

I will guard my heart with the joy of the Lord :)
my Jesus is so good!
He will give me the words to say.
i delight in Him.

because isn't all this for Him?

i have a big Daddy God, and i glory in His love...
:)

Stronger - Delirious?

We're getting stronger everyday,
We're getting braver in every way,
Hallelujah here we come.

We're getting stronger everyday,
Push through the rains that fall our way,
Hallelujah here we come.

We're much stronger when we're one,
Hallelujah here we come.

Oh, I love You from the depths of my heart,
And nothing here will tear us apart.
Everything's beautiful with You,
Everything's beautiful, when You invade my life.
And I'm living just to say that 'I love You'.

We're getting closer everyday,
Chasing the dreams that heaven gave,
Hallelujah here we come.

We're getting closer everyday,
Into Your arms I'm here to stay.
We're much stronger when we're one,
Hallelujah here we come.

thanks for the concern, friends :)
jiayou green club! just a little bit more and we'll be free.

i am not the one directing. i am being directed. and i follow.

Lion - Rebecca St James

Mysterious
That's what I call You
I'm curious about You
I'm scared and not sure that You are safe
But Your eyes seem to say that You are good

Chorus
This is not a dream that I'm living
This is just a world of Your own
You took me from all that I knew
Shown me how it feels to hope
With You with me, facing tomorrow together
I can learn to fly
Feels like I'm living in a lion's mouth, but the lion is (an angel)

Wise eyes, You see the core of me
Your gentleness melts me
And now I know that words cannot describe
The power that I feel when I'm with You

Chorus
This is not a dream that I'm living
This is just a world of Your own
You took me from all that I knew
Shown me how it feels to hope
With You with me, facing tomorrow together
I can learn to fly
Feels like I'm living in a lion's mouth, but the lion is

Peace and power, love forever
Who am I to stand before You?
I am speechless
But in my weakness
You are here and all is well

You took me from all that I knew
Shown me how it feels to hope
With You with me, facing tomorrow together
I can learn to fly
Feels like I'm living in a lion's mouth, but the lion is (an angel)

Chorus
This is not a dream that I'm living
This is just a world of Your own
You took me from all that I knew
Shown me how it feels to hope
With You with me, facing tomorrow together
I can learn to fly
Feels like I'm living in a lion's mouth, but the lion is (an angel)

is an angel